I MISS AND LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH GARRICK  SCOTT MORAVEK

04/25/08

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I miss my boo sooo much! He went back to school on Friday and I'm so freakin bummed.  I have nothing to do. I just sit around all day now. I'm so freakin lonely and life just sucks without him.  He's one of the few people that keep me sane and happy. He takes care of me and despite all that has happened in the past I'm so glad I'm with him.  He's making up for all the bullshit in the beginning and he treats me so good, he almost spoils me and I hate but I appreciate him so much. I know what people say and think because of the past but honestly, I don't give two shits about what anyone else thinks.  They're not in my shoes and they don't know what I know or feel what I feel.  It's so easy to judge and criticize but until you understand firsthand what it feels like to be me and deal with that stuff then everyone can keep their "I know everything" comments to themselves and mind their own business.  I know what I want and what I'm doing and what I want is him and to be with him.  But anyways, I wish he didn't have to go back to school. I surprised myself when I started to cry cause I knew that would be the last day I would see him or touch him and kiss him til he came back from school. I honestly didn't think I was going to get so emotional but I did lol. I can't kiss or cuddle with him til the next time I see him which is all the way in march! That's waaaay too long!!! I need him here. He brightens up my day so much. My heart still races when I see him and I get butterflies in my stomach as if it was the first time I've seen him.  We've been through so much and I don't ever want to lose him EVER! He's my world and as long as I have him I don't need anything else. I love him so much

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